“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
― Rob Siltanen
While I have always been fond of this particular quote, it has equally left me with a profound feeling of general failure – after all, I can hardly claim to have been extraordinarily successful in life so far, let alone having changed the world.
So when I found myself confronted with the wreckage of my second marriage and feeling even more of a failure than ever, I decided it was time to completely reinterpret it and make it more my own.
How about rather than changing the whole world, I started by just changing my own? And with that I might hopefully start to feel somewhat more content and happy going through life as this had been lacking considerably as of late.
So I decided that every step, no matter how small, was allowed to count as a positive change and a successful one at that, as long as overall it was maintained and did not slip back into what I considered to be less desirable. I had to give myself some leeway after all for being, well just human. Otherwise life would not present all those little challenges along the way but rather be plain sailing start to finish. Albeit bland and boring no doubt.
This all sounds very simple and achievable and generally not much of a reason to despair you might say. And if you happen to be one of those people gliding through light on a wave of smoothness and perfection, I take my head off to you. Genuinely. I however am not one of those, never have been and probably never will be. I don’t really go from A to B, I tend to stray, throw in an extra loop here and there and possibly end up at Z in the end.
But despite getting distracted so often, I do generally realise when things need work. And I try my best. Most of the time at least. Even with those small changes though, I failed and fail again. But the thing is, while it would be easiest to shrug it off and leave it at that, I just start all over again and try to do a little bit better. Sometimes right away, sometimes I let some time pass before I put my mind to it again. So, very slowly, my world and my life has been changing bit by bit over the last few years. It is still ever changing. And I hope it will never quite stop changing.
I can honestly say, I am a lot happier these days. Not in a gushing exuberant way that makes you want to shout ‘Good morning world’ out of the window as soon as you get up but rather the quiet feeling of content that doesn’t seem to get too much credit these days. But in my book, that’s a pretty good basis to aspire for more.